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Finale

2011-05-30T02:56:00.002+08:00

This blogspot have lots of memories. Just read the oldest post and it was extremely naive.

I have no choice that i really want to close down this blog. Because i no longer have the urge to blog and no longer have problems that occurred in the past.

I thank this place as one of the best medium i could use to vent everything. It stuck with me since Secondary One and i have complained, moaned and rejoice so much over here.

Now that i have Graduated from poly already, It just shows how long i am stuck with blogger!

Reading about life during my secondary school is great. Because back then i was occupied with a lot of things. Life was stressful but at the same time i didnt know that it was gonna be the best time of my life. The three years in poly was like fine tuning my character building throughout.

I am proud to say i am really much stronger mentally now. Got past those sad moments and now i am living life that i have never been. But right at my age now is almost like transition. So i will adapt soon enough and i was take the moment to thank those who took their time to come read my blog.

I hereby announce the end of this blog.

RIP

2011-03-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

I feel like dying now. Not that i am upset or what. But there is something bothering so badly. Its like i keep thinking about it. Its disgusting this way cause i lose my focus. At the same time feeling this way makes me worried its like affecting me so badly. Sense of ambiguity is something closest i can describe.

Regret doing so much things suddenly. Feel that i took so many wrong choices during my polytechnic studies. Sometimes i wish they are really reading this. But no one reads anymore so whatever. Feel so guilty. Feel like if only i didnt choose sides and refuse to believe certain bullshits. I am totally upset. Because there is just a barrier right now that could never be moved away. Definitely going have a tough time sleeping tonight.

OVER LO

2011-02-28T18:00:00.002+08:00

OVERRRR

HELLO I AM BACK

2010-11-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

Actually don't really feel like doing this all over again but for that sake of my friend. Here i am!!!

Right now, right at this moment, really damn sick of school work. On my own bed at night yearning for a peaceful sleep, thoughts would always just flow through. Things that i worry the most would go through first, followed by things i want to do and lastly things i wish to do. Truthfully, sometimes i do wish i can speak up about certain things to a person. But, then i think again how many really understand really what i am going through?

It just seems like when i get older, i really wish for some time alone but yet i do wish i have some time to talk to someone. I am still so unsure how satisfied i am with my life. There is this one thing i really wished to do since i was young. To play soccer professionally. Donning the jersey doing wonderful stuffs. Never succeed and no fate with soccer at all.

Then i realized there were also a truckload of regrets i have leading to my unsatisfactory life. There is actually nothing i look forward to right now. In the past, I always feel that i had to achieve something and do something. Am i reaching the end now? Feel so upset whenever i am like alone going through some mental difficulties.

If there is a chart to illustrate my life right now, its probably at the lowest point right now. Hope i wake up from this dreams of dreams of dreams soon and i do wanna feel cheerful but nothing can bring it up. I do no love myself today. :(

HW: My Friend, Fragile and like to act tough. Come on!! Show your feminine side more often!!!

TEACHING!

2010-03-20T03:36:00.003+08:00

I just completed a 16 hours 8-5 2 days training programme for teaching internship. It was really useful but the amount of hours is just unbearable. Having a 55 years of teaching experience trainer was delighting but his explanation pace is really kind of slow. Perhaps he was just trying to enforce us to remember most of the strategies but i feel that when it comes to teaching, you won't have time to think of all those strategies to deal with various obstacles.

From Monday onwards, i will be reporting to sch at 7.10am. Almost daily. I will have to report school earlier than students and seriously i am kind of nervous about what i need to do on the first day.

By the way, going through all those teaching strategies in the training programme. I begin to recollect what i have done in my primary school days. Okay you see, i was a really short, tiny and timid boy in primary school. I am most afraid of my primary 4 teacher. It was pressurizing. This teacher of mine, give a plentiful of sarcastic remarks to every students. If you laugh too loudly she says you laugh like hyena. If you fail to hand in your work she will threaten to call your parents. I don;t know but i am very afraid of teaching calling my parents. I think its shameful. Its shameful in a way that you need your mother to reason it out for you to your teacher. She forced every student to complete the primary 4 science "i am a botanist" project. She is cruel. But she did manage to bring good grades to me. But life under those kind of atmosphere was plain frightening. Every morning i wake up and i fear or being scolded or being embarrassed.

Today seems like a bad day. Everything hasn't been smooth and there is always something that disrupts my momentum. Sigh. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

SUCKY

2010-03-15T03:08:00.002+08:00

It sucks to be blamed for nothing. I hate ppl who treats you the best when they need you and throw you aside once they are done using you.

The worst thing is they are someone close to you. People like these totally don't deserve to be in this world seriously. Self centered and selfish. Their character is just utter rubbish.

I got my worst semestral results ever. Damn. There is no supp papers but i can see my GPA sinking to the bottom like there is no end. Every semester just gets harder.

I am not sure if i am capable to study nutrition and disease. My brain just cant store that much info and i feel that i prefer studying modules which are lighter and require more maths.

On a lighter note, i went for the briefing for the teaching intern. Awesome. I am posted to Hai Sing Catholic and someone from SP is being posted to the same as me. She seems kinda quiet. Hopefully nothing screws up!

Training will start on 18 and end on 19. Then i will proceed on to teach for 4 weeks from 22 march to most likely 16 april?

I need some motivation and here you go.
The question should be, is it worth trying to do, not can it be done.

- Allard Lowenstein, twentieth-century American diplomat

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAEYEON

2010-03-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

I want to dedicate this post to my dearest Kim Taeyeon.

I wanna wish her happy 21years old birthday(22 in korea)

May all your wishes come true and stay cheerful, pretty and cute!

For guys like my living in a single life. We often to find ourselves pretty lonely at night and sometimes whenever we feel like telling someone about something we fail to find a person to pour our excitement.

Since becoming a fan of SNSD last year. My single life has greatly improved. Whenever i feel upset, troubled and lonely. I listen to SNSD's songs. It kills all my unwanted emotions instantaneously. But no one has captured my heart so much as Taeyeon.

She is the leader of this 9 person girl group and have one of the most amazing vocals.

I could only set my eyes one her and no room for other girls. XD

her actions are adorable and lovable. Her personality is what attracts me the most. She is someone who works very hard and is able to take stress. She never complains a lot and is always putting 101% for every training or performance.

She is everything i seek for.

But, i will continue to support her and love her as my idol. She will always be and cant imagine SNSD without taeyeon. For all the reasons i feel happy today because its her birthday. I feel even more happier than on my own birthday. If she do come down to Singapore. OMG. I will be there personally to catch a glimpse of her.

KIMTAEYEON< 3

NEW!

2010-03-01T03:28:00.002+08:00

Took a little time to revamp this blog. Kind of bored to death by the previous layout.

It can take almost a year for a person to plan every materials, budget and design for a performance. All of it might just be for that mere 8 minutes. To present a flawless yet entertaining performance. During the process of training and planning is definitely strenuous, mental and physically torturing.

Really good to see the progress. But realize, i could no longer have that drive i had a few years ago. It was a passionate me. A passionate person who wants to bring them to higher heights and prove to everyone that we aren't weaklings. I was really eager to prove myself right.

However every single drive is gone. For peculiar reasons i no longer think i can prove to be a helping hand. I have really lost touch. My current life revolves around nutrition, food and games. Music was kind of like my second love in sch when soccer was first.

May this drive be back on me once again.

Talk about my own life. Screw it man seriously

I might have gone into teaching internship but when i vigorously went to check with everyone, i realize i don't have much friends got chosen. That means i will have to go buona vista ALONE. YES THE FCKING DUNNO HOW MANY MINS. Trip to buona vista is always like a trip to Malaysia. You stare into space and wondering how the fck you survive the entire trip.

I really do wish i don have have to take any supp papers. Its a torture. May lucky events be on their way!

Pretty GIRL!

2010-02-02T01:44:00.003+08:00

While i was walking home today, saw this really made my heart race like crazy girl. Her looks were so mesmerizing almost like meeting the goddess of the whole universe. I could see shining lights emitting from her and imagine a halo right on top of her head. I was immediately heels over head with her.

OMG, i don mind shortening my life by 5 years to see her again. She was jogging and and once she was like 1 metres apart from me my heart was beating really fast.

WTF i have no idea why but she just looks really really beautiful in my eyes.

Anyway, i pretty upset my thumbdrive got corrupted by YY. Seriously, i wished you didnt even ask me to insert my thumbdrive into your computer. Its really frustrating. All my project assignments from year 1 till year 2. You know what? i will remember this. Really damn pissed by his actions.

At least apologise sincerely and thank yourself for creating a wonderful first impression to me during a PBPN BLOG PROJECT MEETING "APPLAUD"

4 more weeks and i can smell freedom. Really wanna fulfill a lot of my wishes during the holidays. HWAITING~

WAHAHA

2010-01-19T01:07:00.002+08:00

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! ONLY TWO EXAMS! OMG
CANT BELIEVE WHAT I AM SEEING AS WELL. AHAAHA.

But well, the upcoming few weeks i gonna be very busy. Seriously. I am ready now!

WAH LAN EH.

2010-01-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

Frustrated that every sunday there is something undone. when is it going to end?

HAIYAHAIYA

2010-01-10T02:53:00.002+08:00

Ain't meant to be means ain't meant to be.

Just face it.
Frustrating that sometimes life isn't fair. But isn't this what makes us more eager to prove ourselves wrong? or even do it better the next time. Never succumb to fate but people should control fate by going against it.

All those nonsensical shits saying that its fate are a bull. Humans are never satisfied with what they have. Including myself. Really try becoming a better person already.

2010, may this just be my year. I am serious. I want my life to change starting from this year. I want to put my past behind.

2009 was OMGWTFBBQKNN. So many upsetting events. May you just appear right now my dear fairy~ Nights~

BIRTHDAY

2009-12-25T04:46:00.005+08:00

First of all Merry Xmas everyone!

Had lots of fun for the past few days
Well, i had 3 cakes from bengawan solo!
HAHA. Especially when the cake from my secondary school friends presented to me was actually the enlarged version of the one my section bought!

They taste the same but i think that doesn't matter. I'm more contented that there are actually people willing to spend time on my birthday. Personally i not someone really influential and so long as you wished me i think i would be happy enough. Be it a sms or even posting at Facebook. Its the sincerity that counts.

I shall call my 18th birthday a bittersweet one. Really kinda upset that some of my close friends actually didn't remember its my birthday. Yes a handful of them.

Not only that, it's frustrating that something occurred just few hours before my birthday.

"it will be good to try to forget the past but its hard to erase them totally."

I really beg to differ. How difficult it is to forget?
It's just telling me you aren't magnanimous enough and you are petty enough that you insist that those feelings must stay.

You are telling me Friendship < Work.
Made me really angry. I was even foolish enough that you guys are probably forgiving enough and we would still be like in the past.

But no. You guys chose to remain that awkward atmosphere. IT shows how low the EQ can be. If i had known that you guys didn't want to group with us so badly, I would have seriously dropped out.

Its like i am forcing you guys to unwilling trying to be unselfish by grouping with your previous classmates. I am feeling so infuriated right now.

Why can't my groupings just get better and why can't my birthday get better each year. Last year was fcking screwed up bday i had. This year ain't any better.

Its always the case that i tried to be nice to people and it doesn't reciprocate. LAST YEAR IS THE SAME THIS YEAR IS THE SAME. It just leaves to me feel that WHY THE F i have to be all nice and goody to those people.

However i am really touched by some of my friends' effort.

Firstly i must thank huiwen.

It may be just a simple picture but no one has ever done something like that to me in my whole entire 18 years of life. Really thank her for drawing such a cute picture. Thank you huiwen! you are the first this year! She must be smiling ear to ear right now and feeling uneasy that i am so praising her right now. haha.

I wanna thank french horn section! You guys may be playful but right inside my heart everyone in the french horn section is treasured by me deeply. I will do my utmost to help you guys and continue to be the best section in the whole UNIVERSE!

I wanna thank my secondary school friends to let me have a joint cele with Nikko Tan and thanks for the CS session. LOL

Thank those from my poly that celebrated with me! Especially michelle and huiwen!

I hereby sincerely thank those who have wished me regardless of the time, date, location and format. Those in FB and SMS especially, wanna thank you guys for wishing me!

A little pity that i lost two of my most treasured friends this year. Somehow i do not hate them at all but i do wish if there is a chance we could be friends again. Sigh. But glad that one of them did wished me.

A disappointing 18 years old arrival, but i will continue to stay positive and believe my 19 years old birthday is going to be my best, fulfilling and happiest day ever.

2009-12-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

I am just merely 2 days away from being 18.

Dunno why but i feel kind of excited. LOL. Being 18 gives me a sense of maturity. It makes me feel that i need to accomplish things in a more direct way or rather hold more responsibility on my own image.

However i don't have plans on how to celebrate my bday. no one has really asked me to out. =( Hopefully something happens.

Anyway, Holidays have been superb for me. I feel so happy everyday. HEHE.

2009-12-12T05:42:00.004+08:00

F MY LIFE man seriously. I AM FUMING RIGHT NOW. I AM SO ANGRY.

I JUST FINISHED MY COMMNU PROJECT. I SPENT 3 HOURS DOING IT. THIS IS THE SHIT I GET NOW? UNABLE TO RETRIEVE MY OLD DOCUMENT. BECAUSE I REPLACED THE NEW DOCUMENT WITH AN OLD DOCUMENT

I AM SO TIRED RIGHT NOW. I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP SO MUCH. EVERYTHING IS GONE AND I HAVE TO REDO EVERYTHING FROM SCRATCH.

SERIOUSLY THIS IS NOT FUNNY, I DID CITITATIONS, I REFER BACK AND FOURTH WITH GRAPH AND DOCUMENT JUST TO CHECK EVERYTHING IS CORRECT. I JUST WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW.

Infuriation

2009-12-09T01:12:00.002+08:00

Its infuriating. The fking 15 marks qn killed my hopes. I wished they asked about something else. I didn't even bother to revise through the stoichiometry part. Catering Tech also like that, PBPN also like that.

Really demoralize me. I did study and it sucks to feel and know you are not going to do well. Anyway i will be having another two papers later on. Thank god its open book examination. Hence no burning of midnight oil tonight and i could sneak into fifa for a while.

Love the month of Decemeber. The Christmas atmosphere and most importantly the anxiety of being 18. =DDDDDDDD

2009-12-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

I do not know how to start this post. Anyway, for this entire week, i will tied for term tests.

Still at the wee hours of night here i am trying to squeeze everything i can about the topic into my head. Bloody boring.
Glycolysis
Glycogenolysis
Gluconeogenesis
Glycogenesis

WTFFFFFFFF. They are all different with different uses!
Shoot me on my head right now.
I CANT WAIT FOR EVERYTHING TO ENDDDDDDDD

2009-11-24T00:54:00.002+08:00

Alright everything today was such a breeze. Not really stressful only find that having four hours of lecture straight is really tiring.

I FINALLY GOT RID OF MY OLD PHONE!
FROM NOW ON I CAN FINALLY TALK TO A PERSON ON THE PHONE FOR MORE THAN 2mins!

Okay let me tell you guys how my previous phone tortured me.
my old phone's battery was so fat that the cover couldn't completely attach to my phone. The longest talktime i ever had with my ex phone was probably 5mins. After that my battery will go flat.

Fking miserable having a phone like that.

But thats no longer one of my worries. Really hope the quizzes results don't disappoint me then i will be even more happier.

I had so much last week. My saturday and sunday was a blast. Which eventually led to to a GIGANTIC BLACK HOLE in my wallet. =/

About My dearest Taeyeon

2009-11-18T23:17:00.004+08:00

I always know you are just a fantasy.

Something i yearn for but there is no way we could know each other. I am referring to Taeyeon. In reality its just a one sided affair. Watching you perform is my greatest motivation. Admiring you from my seat is what i am best at doing.

Honestly speaking you filled up this empty heart of mine at times. Somehow it does. Deep down in my heart this space can never be filled. Moreover, the fact is i am like using you as a replica.

At my age, its really pretty boring that there are only two things for you to do.

Study and play hard.

It's not something you can enjoy doing. I used to think how awesome my life is and how happy i was. But at time goes by everything just seems so dull. I don't really look forward to my daily life.

I need TLC so much.

I feel so lousy right now. I guess sometimes i really need to seize what i really want. I swear from now on. I will change.

I want to become a better person.

OVEREATING

2009-11-17T22:35:00.002+08:00

My community nutrition teacher said right to my face that people that eat fast are people who tend to overeat. Yes, it was in my face. LY and JY were laughing away. In fact, i am really someone who can eat really fast.

Not that i want to. But its my habit and i do it naturally. I enjoy eating food very quickly. No wonder i feel so hungry every second after a while.

The only way for me to prevent this is eat slowly. Which is like IMPOSSIBLE for me.

Anyway, its going to be crazy this week. I have a lot of plans.

Basically i need to go study right now. PBPN quiz tomorrow.
Thursday is basically my FM day. Got a duel with yong siang and his BOLTON(SPURS).

PYMB R.O.D on Saturday
Gonna Watch 2012 on Sunday

Need to go get clothings soon as well. I feel very active right now.

I AM BACK

2009-11-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

YESSSSSS.

Its the WEEKENDS!
I JUST REMEMBERED I FORGOT TO WATCH SURVIVOR. DAMN IT! Did that Russell guy got eliminated?

Argh, i will fking stamp on you the next time. Perhaps i just can't take in certain words, phrases or even sentences. My character just behave the way it is.

I have a lot of things in mind that i need to acquire. Just feel like splurging.

Anyway, i wonder if anyone that uses vista give problems? I am starting to believe what Norman told me. Vista is a failure. Seriously. I am speculating Window 7 might not be any better. The best O.S is still XP.

Rainbow is slowly becoming my new love

Backstreet Boys's Straight Through My Heart just keeps on lingering in my mind.

MAY ALL GOOD THINGS HAPPEN NEXT WEEK!

First week of school

2009-10-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

First week of school have been so joyous and relaxing.
Ending school at 3pm and starting school at times like 12pm is so enjoyable. :)

However i have a new problem now.
I have been sleeping very early these few days not including today.
Sleeping at times like 7pm, 9pm and 6pm yesterday!

No idea why. But in a good way it is preventing me from getting late to classes. Since i wake up at 4am. LOL

I shall go idling. ;)

SCHOOL RESUMES TOMORROW

2009-10-18T09:01:00.005+08:00

A little delighted school is starting tomorrow. A little upset this is the end of my holidays.

So which side should i favour more?

Had some crazy games of L4D with Eric, Dan and Gang. Literally shouted at the top of my voice to rush them. HEHE.

Anyway, i will be allocated to new tutorial classmates this semester. Something i am really expecting and looking forward. But Karen is in the same class as me.

I am in deep trouble. I can no longer bitch about her here. She will slaughter me during tutorials. Good thing that ~~Auntie Neo~~, Liyun, SS501's Triple S Jiayi and YongSiang will be in the same class me.

YongSiang told me he wanna study hard for this semester.

Now anyone reading this please take note. He says he wanna study hard. Hope he can study hard being with me XP.

Yongsiang as long as we refrain ourself from Warcraft and Fifa it will be fine. HEHE

Time to revert back my sleeping time. :/
AND WTF CHELSEA LOST AGAIN. "FUMING"

May good luck be bestowed to me this whole week =)

TAENGO

2009-10-16T05:56:00.003+08:00

I really can foresee myself getting late for school the very first week itself. How to hell can i reach school by 8am on Mondays and Tuesdays and 9am from Wednesday to Friday. Its too early to be honest.

Not only that, from Monday to Thursday i end school at 6pm. WTF? Life is gonna be terrible.

You are just the most adorable person! <3 taengoo
I fainted immediately after i saw this picture.

TinkerBell

2009-10-07T05:34:00.003+08:00

You know its like i have been duped Andrew Ang to work as a waiter in Conrad Hotel.

Its really kind of a shitty and torturous job. Basically you work from 6pm and 1am sometimes 2am (~~OMGWTFBBQ~~).

But the pay is pretty decent and you have Andrew the gay boy with you all along. I really detest it at first. I just don like carrying dishes and sometimes you hate to hover it around the guests. Because you really gonna get screwed if you spill the food onto the customers.

Some customers demand A CLASS service from waiters like us. ~~NNB~~

On a lighter note, School is going to re open soon. A little looking forward to it. Its been a long while since i have seen my poly friends. But still i prefer being on holidays! ;)

Irreversible Sleeping Time

2009-09-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

I am totally screwed. I cant sleep normally like a human being. WTT.

I sleep like 5am everyday, Sometimes 10am sometimes 2pm. I feel like a freak. Yes i do.

I want to go back to normal. Sleep at 12am and wake up as early as possible.

Now, i can foresee myself being awake for the next 4 hours.

GRRR!

Anyway, I have been really crazy about SNSD for the past few days. YOU GUYS JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE. YES AND YOU GUYS WILL NEVER WANT TO KNOW.

I joined Soshified.
I can claimed that i watch 1/3 of all SNSD's Shows
I very in love with TaeYeon.

You know, it just keeps me entertained by watching their performances and acts. I would feel boring and mundane whenever during the holidays, but due to the influence of SNSD, I found a new hobby.

HUR HUR HUR
If they really do come Singapore.
F! TRUST ME I WILL GO WATCH THEM PERFORM.
Now is the start of my new and wonderful chapter.

2009-09-18T00:32:00.003+08:00

~~HELLO~~
TEST TEST TEST
STUPID!AHAHAHAHAH

2009-09-13T03:50:00.000+08:00

Really apologetic for not being able update recently.

Aiya, as usual my life has been really mundane and dull so there is nothing much for me to talk about as well.

Saw the bao below? Its big right? It was awesome~~~~~~
The filling consists of chicken, pork, egg, sausage and mushrooms!
yummy~

Anyway, i got my results a few days ago. Thank god i didn't fail any of my subjects but then GPA did dropped a bit. sigh..

OKAY NEW SEMESTER BRAND NEW LIFE COMING!

BIGGEST PAO

2009-09-08T21:10:00.003+08:00

Presenting to you the biggest pao i have ever ate.

2009-08-31T03:04:00.000+08:00

OVER OVER OVER OVER!

Exams are finally over and here comes THE HOLIDAYS!

Anyway, Esmee Denters is really hot.
Go see her music videos.

Once again i have planned a exciting plan for the next few weeks of my holidays to keep myself busy and entertained.

Life is so goood when you have nothing to worry for. Well I have a feeling i might need to take supp papers this semester. It's the very first time i feel uneasy about getting my results.

So well, i am praying hard the grades wouldn't drop drastically.

2009-08-22T02:44:00.000+08:00

One paper down!

Two more to go!

Next one on Monday!

F. I knew it. Something about the stainless steel was gonna come. DAMN IT
Do you guys even know that there are 316L, 304 and 302 stainless steel?

WTF stainless steel = stainless steel la.

BODOH.

You know i cant wait to spend my time WITH THE COMPUTER AND PLAY GAMES LIKE MAD after thursdays. As usual i got plenty of plans coming right up.
But it just doesnt feel right since i don have a confidante.

2009-08-21T01:34:00.001+08:00

i just cant get the facts right inside my head.

Haiya, i feel like playing. Seriously

Food Santition.
As the title aboves says.
Its such a pain that you need to even remember things LIKE WATER TREAMENT PROCESS FROM PUB, MATERIAL REQUIREMENTS FOR WALLS, FLOORS AND EVEN WINDOWS!

Damn it.

Somehow i feel damn stressed up. =(

Mugging!

2009-08-19T02:47:00.005+08:00

HELLO I AM GONNA BE AWAY TO STUDY FOR MY EXAMS.

TO ANYONE READING THIS I Sincerely and solemnly wish you best of luck for all your examinations.

But i cant resist the temptation of computer. THAT IS WHY I AM HERE.

However i am really gonna keep myself away from computer for 2 weeks.
Life is dull now but i gonna reap my rewards later.
I really need to do well this semester so that i can permit myself for the teaching internship next semester.

Studying is really everything.
Good results is what every student needs!
Think about the future!

However my heart speaks otherwise. Sigh.
I just spent 4 hours on Water Sanitation. How pathetic.

Story of the mule

2009-08-17T00:27:00.003+08:00

After Serious Thoughts.

I got over it.

The story of the mule

This parable is told of a farmer who owned an old mule.

The mule fell into the farmer’s well. After carefully assessing the

situation, the farmer sympathized with the mule, but decided that neither

the mule nor the well was worth the trouble of saving. Instead, he called

his neighbors together and told them what had happened...and enlisted

them to help haul dirt to bury the old mule in the well and put him out of

his misery.

Initially, the old mule was hysterical! But as the farmer and his neighbors

continued shoveling and the dirt hit his back, a thought struck him. It

suddenly dawned on him that every time a shovel load of dirt landed on

his back...HE SHOULD SHAKE IT OFF AND STEP UP! This he did,

blow after blow. “Shake it off and step up...shake it off and step

up...shake it off and step up!” He repeated to encourage himself. No

matter how painful the blows, or how distressing the situation seemed the

old mule fought “panic” and just kept right on SHAKING IT OFF AND

STEPPING UP! It wasn’t long before the old mule, battered and

exhausted, STEPPED TRIUMPHANTLY OVER THE WALL OF THAT

WELL!

A great attitude . A great way to approach life. Shake it off and step up. Too often we hold on to what has happened to us. We hold on ti it for a week, a month, even years.

We cannot shake it loose from our memory. It eats away at us and steals our joy, happiness and peace of mind. The past hurt can create feelings of bitterness, resentment, anger and revenge

We keep allowing these emotions to be thrown on our backs and if we do nothing, we will be buried deep in the well. Walls will be built in our relationships.We will avoid each other and the cold war begins.

But we have a choice: keep it inside and embrace the hurt or shake it off and step up. Give it a try. Shake it off. And step up. Words that have been said or actions that haven been done, shake it off and step up. Let if go. Whatever it is: a rude comment, a past mistake, being ignored, we can stew over it all for weeks... It occupies us all the time.

Too often we nurse hurts, we keep them alive inside and go over them time and time again; not only stewing from them, but now chewing them over and over until it gets us sick. Too often we rehearse hurts, tell everyone what has happened to us.

The cure is to accept what has happened, try to make sense out of it; learn from it, then shake it off and step up. When you let it go you feel free and you are no longer buried in the well.

Once you are on your feet again, you can take some action. you decide where you want to grow in life, the direction you want your life to take. You decide whether you allow the hurt to make you a bitter or a better person. Learn from it . Emerge strong.

Do you agree?

_|_

2009-08-13T00:46:00.004+08:00

Thanks for the gift i appreciate it. Somehow i was thinking about how i treated you as my best friend in the past. Well, i don't know what to do now.

Now there is another thing bothering me. Giving me that frustrating and sad feeling. I still freaking hate you. Hate you for lying to me. For cheating me. For making me feel so happy at times cause i trusted you and you end up the other way.

I have this really big major problem. I don't trust girls. I no longer feel i should be nice to them sometimes. They probably stabbed me too many times in the front and back.

I think i fail to live my life in a proper manner. I really do not know how to remove that hatred in me. It just brings me back to think WTF have i done to make you feel this way. WTF did i do wrong.

You know, i have done everything to fufill my part as a proper, decent guy.
It wasnt worthwhile. S.O.B

I tried every way to improve. But its useless, pointless and meaningless.

I just fail to concentrate now. I feel so distracted.
If only .......

2009-08-11T02:02:00.003+08:00

its certainly nice to exercise again. =D

But well i met some small gangsters who are like sec 3 or sec 4 trying to play big with me and act like they are some sort of scary gangsters during the basketball games.

If resorting to violence helps, why do we need laws?
Probably they don understand.

Well, nvm i got a huge knock down to ground. For the very first time someone actually pushed me to the ground. I aint skinny you know.

Life can be miserable if you choose to live it in the miserable way
Sometimes i see my friends going so stressed up and mad over personal problems.
I do pity them. I cant help but i do hope things would be better for them

Therefore, i hereby wish anyone here that you guys will have a great, exciting and exhilerating day after reading this particular sentence.

Cheers =)

2009-08-06T02:35:00.000+08:00

how how how. i haven do my log book.

Damn tired now.

Well happen to see it.
Probably the phrase weren't meant for each other is really suitable.

Okay, Like what i have mention in facebook. Life isn't just about reaching your goals but finding the little things that can lift you up.

Sucess comes with happiness is good. But failure comes with happiness isnt that bad.
I am still hoping one day i could find someone to pour all my feelings to. Its always better if you know you have a person who is damn supportive of every decision you make.

Once again i think i am feeling just like how i felt 6 months ago. When disappointment level rises so high.

2009-08-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

FKKNNCB.

How many times would i need to further explain myself. I don't like people probing into my secrets. I hate your sore-loser character. Seriously if you cannot accept the fact you lost then don't freaking play.

All you love is to win and win and win. Childish despite at your age.
Not only that you fking competitive. You caused me to be competitive yeah?
Come. Bring it on.

I can never comprehend you and neither will you. Fking nosy parker. I am old enough to handle my problems.

I just hate so many people. If only those people didn't let me see the ugly side of them. I am feeling damn angsty now. I just can't stand your character.

Ya maybe i have some personal issues. Whatever. For now your EQ level is -500. You gotta work on it.

And here comes the other freaking online gamer that bugs me all the time. _|_

2009-08-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

Okay from tomorrow onwards bookeong you will need to spend 3 days exercising. Finish up your god damn log book.

Nights ~

2009-08-01T02:02:00.000+08:00

i really apologise for my lack of updates.

lost all the inspiration to blog.

Okay to repay the faith of people who still actually visit this blog to view.
I'm going to give you some nutrtional tips.

Ever heard of people telling how important is breakfast is?

Breakfast is indeed the most important meal for everyone.
The reason being, breakfast gives blood sugar to our brain.
This blood sugar level increases with the intake of carbohydrates.
So eating bread or bun in the morning would be good.

This enhances your brain to think better, concentrate better and remember things more significantly!
It also prevents you from sleeping!(Unless you sleep for like 2 or 3 hours la)

I have tried going a week with breakfast in the morning. So far i havent been sleeping in lectures and i have been listening very attentively!

Trust me it will work. Anyway, breakfast should be taken like around 7, 8 or 9am.

OMGWTHBBQKUCF teacher called me Mr. Stripes in front of the whole lecture theatre.
Now Martina and gang calls me Mr. Stripes. Slap their face man. XD Especially the martina's one

Rest

2009-07-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

Okay i have decided i will try not put my personal prejudice against you for now.
Gives an eerie feeling whenever ppl tell me "are you talking about me"
oh good grief.

Anyway, I have been a real loser today.
Ain't gonna say what happened. Lost almost everything. Alas

it has been a really really long time since i last spoke to you.
I failed to throw that thing away. Its still stuck inside my pencil box.

Okay i better don think too much~
Time to get really stress soon.

2009-07-20T03:20:00.000+08:00

2009-07-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

after an intense studying of NLS for the past two days.
I am mentally drained.
Feel so tired mentally.

this is just the beggining. Semester exam is going to be worst definitely.

AND damn it. i screwed my last question. Fk, they asked about nutritional problems in infants.
I was praying so hard for a breast milk essay question. Forget it

Now another two or three more quizzes! Then it will be time for the semester exams~

Come on, studying is so tough at year 2. Just let me make it through without doing badly for this semester. I know i can. =D

2009-07-15T00:00:00.003+08:00

I show you guys some of the pictures in the past.

You see, back then when i was young. Around sec 1 or sec 2. All i wanted and dream of was to play and play. YES. TO PLAY.

PLAY in a sense to have fun like small children. I wasn't serious about school work and stuff

I hated studying. I joined band not because i wanted but my friend was inside so i joined.

Well, first two years in band was really fun. Seriously fun. Because i didnt had to care a lot. I skipped some of the practices. Until sec 2 where i had to start showing i am a senior to the new intake of sec 1s. I started going band very regulary. It was a chore.

I hated it as much as i loved it. I became very confused. Then i realised, it isn't about having fun in band anymore but bringing glory. In the end, i got promoted.

We strive to work our very hard in band back then.

Is it still the same for you guys now?

2009-07-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

i hate posers.
i hate people who acts smart
Seriously, stop it.
You are not as good as you thought you are.

2009-07-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

yawnzzz....

Just came back from swimming.
Its super tiring.

I can barely open my eyes or even concentrate on something!
But i got an informal report to finish. Gosh..

Capability.

2009-07-09T21:50:00.003+08:00

I'm keeping my cool.
Maintaining what my emotions are, right now.
I don't see a reason to argue with you. Because there is only 5 to 6 weeks more to go.

But doubting my capability is putting my patience to the test.
Obviously i think you still deserved to be vituperated by me for what you have done.
I just can't comprehend.
I ain't going to say any further.

Continue to think i ain't helping. Or even jeopardizing everything you said.
Cause i really no longer care. :)

Alright next 3 days i will damn busy.
Lots of plans.

Big gang Outing

2009-07-03T23:50:00.003+08:00

Ever tried going out with 20 of your friends?!

haha i did. Surprisingly everyone was able to make it.

It was damn fun. Just that a little hard to decide where to go at some point of time.

I am damn lazy to blog any further. Goodnight guys.

2009-06-29T03:06:00.003+08:00

I cant get to sleep right now.

Hate it.

Sunday is the day i seriously hate the most.

2009-06-28T07:07:00.002+08:00

EMPTY. Empty. empty.

Wished i had a little more charm and i wouldnt be so empty now.

2009-06-27T00:45:00.003+08:00

there goes another week of school. Left with 8 more weeks before Semester Exams.

Due to your incapability of handling the whole god damn thing. You are causing a production of abundant absurdity. You impeded almost everything. What can i say is. You don have my respect towards you. Till you prove me wrong. Which i probably think you won't.

Your lack of consideration is utterly depressing. I cant wait to get out from there. You tormented me totally with those nonsense.

Pardon me for what i have said.

I have so much work to do.
Its like never ending.

2009-06-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

GREATTTTTTTTT
I found an assistant. Currently we have plans to bring the band forward. Plenty of things to plan for upcoming days. Now all the dedication urge is coming to me. I can feel the urge to see the band do well.

Time for the WHOLE New Generation. =D

2009-06-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

One word "Irritated"

The most dynamic word i can use now.
I need peace and quiet.
Please use your god damned pea brain to do it yourself.
Let me emphasize once and for all.
I don like repeating things i have said once.
Fk you if you don't remember. So don even ask me again

I don like ppl to ask me check things out for them
Fk you if you want me to do that. Maybe once in a while.
If you ask me all the time. Seriously go f yourself.

I am really so damn pissed. You have no idea how many things i need to do for myself. So stop asking me to help you TODAY. I am not in the mood to help you today and i wont do it.

I bet each everyone of you wish to have peace and quiet on a particular day. If you stepped on my tail once more. Don blame me if i hurl insults on you.

2009-06-18T00:13:00.004+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Why is school nearing.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO

This is what i call cute!

Taeyeon!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAbx96JjWys

2009-06-16T02:00:00.003+08:00

I am looking forward to tomorrow. =)
I just realize out of my folly i did a big big boo boo.

Now i am pondering should i go cut my hair.
The more i look at it i see a coconut.
Sometimes because of this i reject taking photos.
Drop Dead Serious!

Sch starts next week.
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2009-06-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

A dedication is a commitment.

If you hereby swear you are gonna do something
Then do it with all your might.
Even if you do, do it till you're the best.

What can i really do to help?
Probably i should heck it and stir forward to future.

I'm just too lazy at the moment.
Without any help i rather don't do it.

Really need to fathom priorities.
I am currenly very mentally drained

Nobody to love

2009-06-12T02:59:00.005+08:00

Hi guys! Time to update a little. Okay on tuesday, went out with my class peeps! We went to have oysters and caught a movie (Night at the Museum 2)

Aewsome show man. Damn hilarious as well. LOL. Whenever i think about the roman soldier charging with his so called ferocious animal (the squirrel) makes me laugh.
Food were delicious! Went for oysters at FIN located at Marina Square and went to Cafe Cartel for snacks after everything!

This is Ong Wei Zhen. Taller than me by 10cm. sorry have to EMPHASIZE OVER & OVER AGAIN.

Stephanie. Probably you guys haven see her before. The most fierce woman in my class. HEHE

This person is the most IDIOTIC, NOISIEST, IRRITATING, TOMBOYISH, ACT FIERCE and LAUGHS FOR NO GOOD REASON. She is Hui Wen aka my arch enemy aka wenster. Can see the reluctant look in my face to take photo with her?! hahaha. Faster come back and hand me my chewing gums.

This is Michelle Chan! The only girl that thinks i am nice. T_T. She is very helpful, caring and nice! Well basically she is like my elder sister. She prevented me from being bullied by that notorious gangster/wenster on top of this pic. Sadly, she attached liao la.

The center guy is the gayest person on living earth. Loves to touch *COUGH COUGH* and peep at other people's *COUGH COUGH*. He is Jake the gayboy aka Ah Gua aka Thailand Boy aka WHITE STEAMED CHICKEN. He is freaking white mind you. Good friend of mine. =)

Yong Siang on the most right is my best kaki too man. People have difficulties differentiating me and him. Our body sizes are way too similar, similarly for height. Just that i taller a bit. HAHA sorry Yong Siang. He is x99999 more blur than me. Can you imagine that?! Another good friend of mine =)

Our Only Group Photo. Hope you guys enjoyed that day! Like me!

Okay as you all can see. Life is wonderful for me. I have moved on so much. Pretty much okay now. Satisfied with what i have. Only at certain times. I do consider about some other factors in my life.

I have great friends, great family. I am really satisfied this time.

All i really wish for now is to enjoy every single day in life.

By being happy.

That will be enough.

2009-06-10T00:23:00.001+08:00

Hi guys, pls help me vote for my friend, Shirley Liaw!

http://the199shop.livejournal.com/

You will stand a chance to win some prizes.

No harm doing it!

GOGO!

Tired from two simultaneous draining soccer matches.

Freedom

2009-06-07T01:05:00.003+08:00

I was declared with freedom on 4th of June 2009. No longer have to smell the reek of freedom coming anymore. Because its now with me. With me for only 2 weeks.

GREAT. Holdiays are here. I have lined up activities for at least this week

Monday - Cage Football, Movie and Oysters with Jake, Ys and Huiwen's gang =)
Tuesday - Football with Ping Yi Band at PYSS's field =)
20th of June - Eating Feast with French Horn Section =)
Yet to be confirmed date - Alturas Outing =)

Life is so exhilerating when you have many things going on. Probably the rest of the days i would watch movie, play computer games and do the rest of my homework and assignments.

Pick yourself up if you fall. Because you can always start all over.
Don ever give up.

SNSD AND WONDERGIRLS

2009-05-30T02:13:00.006+08:00

HELLO GUYSSS AND GIRLSSS.

Time to update this blog!
Okay I got to know wonder girls through Courts. They were playing their songs on the displaying computers. So i went over to watch and i thought the song was really nice. Go listen Nobody by wondergirls. I think they have wonderful dance moves. I use to watch the video 2 times everyday. Not anymore now

The one in the 4th column is my favourite. Sun Ye. She is probably the only girl with small eyes and i still think she is way too cute for me

Okay so after a few weeks of wonder girls. Here comes Girl Generation or SNSD. I got to know them from Daniel and Jane YOU KNOW WHAT? They don only have 5 girls. There are 9 of them! I know the Tiffany can sing really well. She can do the exact impersonation of Nicole Scherzinger. Taeyeon(2nd person from left) really mesmerizes me here. Jessica!(3rd from right) Actually all of them mesmerizes me. HAHA.

How can 9 gorgeous looking girls be together in a band?!!! This really is fantabulous man. Okay i think need to stop all these idol idol thing. All my previous post has been posted this way. I don think you readers mind at all right? AHA. TAEYEON AND SUN YE. =) In my dreams after this. LOL

SLACK LA

2009-05-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

I wish i could be in the bed right now at this very moment. For obvious reasons i chose to have fun first then work. This is my punishment. I have so many work left undone now. Lab report, logbook. How can i possibly finish with the time left.

Forget it. its 2am now. I would probably take at least 3 hours to finish. Or maybe i should even forget about sleeping. With such limited time.

Alright so i was at Daniel and SinYong 's chalet yesterday. It was their bday celebrations. So happy brthday to both of them! As usual all our whole bunch was there. Had TOO MUCH FUN, JOY and LAUGHTER. I only had 5 hours of sleep after that. Only one more week to go. I am going to run through this like a bull.

I hate the person who invented TV, Game consoles and lame games.

2009-05-23T01:11:00.002+08:00

Talk about any reality show winners. There are no other more deserving winner other than J.T from Survivor Tocantins. His sheer athleticism, charisma and loyalty has gave him the 1 million US DOLLARS. I have been supporting him after episode 4 or 5.

His ability to win the game and he has never been written on the paper to be voted off. How impressive for 39 days in some deserted forest and a group of people which you have never met in your life. Really really impressive feat. I respect him for that and he really deserve to win.

Aw man at least for Survivor there isn't any surprise. Unlike American Idol. Which i have no idea how come Kris Allen won. Arghh.

No more Survivor and American Idol shows for now! I am now anticipating the premiere of Prison Break!

2009-05-19T22:23:00.004+08:00

Moving forward without a designated direction, no aim and look where are now. Its really sad to know. Not even being enthu about all the forthcoming lessons. Really starting to brings my mood down to the lowest point.

Cant stand the amount of workload now.
I just want to rest, rest and rest.
I presume nothing really spurs me on for now.
How boring life could be.

1, 2, 3, 4 Hi 5

2009-05-10T00:27:00.004+08:00

Do you remember your favourite shows during primary school days? When i was in pri sch, pokemon, digimon and power rangers are like my LIFE. Everyday i think, play of them. As you get older. You hate them. Because you realise these shows are never ending. From only 150 pokemons maybe there is like 12371984719 pokemons. Boring.

I wanna talk about something i wish to have now. Which is facial hair. I think its cool to have facial hair especially around chin area.

I bet everyone don know that! But i have a big problem. Those hair arent growing really fast and don look like the one i desire. I know Indian's facial's hair can grow really fast. One of my friends even told me to apply those indian cream to hasten the growth. So in the near future you might see me having facial hair like this!

All in the past.

Tisdale

2009-05-09T01:58:00.004+08:00

I think Ashley Tisdale is really kind of cute some way. She might not be the prettiest girl on earth but she certainly can sing. At least she is better than Vanessa Hudgens. HAHA.

If anyone of you guys reading this watches Survivor: Tocantins. I wanna let you know i really hate "Coach". The most arrogant bastard i have seen in all the series. If he wins, i am not going to watch the rest of the SURVIVOR series.

Got embarrassed by teacher again during APEL lesson. She was talking about Friendship Relationship during class. So she went up to the board to write the word "relationship". I was the first to comment by saying "Teacher! I don't have la" (obviously in my mind i was thinking about the boy-girl relationship thing) Then she went on saying "Normally those that speaks the loudest or comment first are the ones that long for the this thing" The whole class went "woooooooooooooooooo".

What can i say? She actually hit the nail on the spot.

I think i better be careful of what i am going to say next time. Really gets me into trouble sometimes.

Life is definitely better without you.

2009-05-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

An Arsenal fan hung himself following his team's 4-1 aggregate drubbing by arch-rivals Manchester United in the Champions League semi-final, police said.

Arsenal lost 3-1 to United in the second leg of their semi-final tie.Suleiman Alphonso Omondi, a 29-year-old Kenyan living in the capital Nairobi's Embakasi neighbourhood, hanged himself in his Arsenal shirt after the match.

"We were watching the match at Bamba 70 pub, and when Arsenal was defeated, Suleiman just walked out in protest and he was crying," Calvin Otieno, one of his friends, said.

"We didn't know he was going to hang himself until this morning when we received the reports and came here to find his body at the balcony," Otieno said outside the decease's home.

We don have to go to the extent of committing suicide even your most favourite team lost. There is always a next time. This is too OVER.

Anyway, Chelsea drew 1 - 1 with Barcelona yesterday. But lost on an away goal. It is very frustrating. My heart raced like mad during the last few minutes of the game. But everything blew up right at the very last minute of the game. It's just too hard to swallow defeat. The referee cost us the game.

ARGH!

Enough about soccer. Talk about school today.I was late for the excursion trip to NEWater today. So damn embarrassing, everyone was waiting for me. Including A8A1. Nice trip though. Allow us to understand where are all our water sources coming from. After that went for lessons all the way till 4 today. Went to run together with yong siang and i clocked 12.49 for 6 laps in the school track which is equivalent to 2.4. That is very bad. In sec sch days i can do 11min plus.

Guess its because i am carrying a 1kg heavy tummy to run with me as well thats why. HAHA. Hopefully tomorrow would be a better day! GOOD NIGHT!

No. 4

2009-05-03T00:48:00.004+08:00

My favourite no. for this year has go to be Number 4. My Register Number is No. 4.

For all the Chinese, we all know how inauspicious is the number 4. It is pronounce as "si". Also means Death in chinese.

But i shall tell everyone how 4 is very related to me.
Before that, 4444 actually came up as the lottery top prize in one of the previous day. LOL

I fell in * censored * in the 4th month of the year
I have to wait pathetic 4 years for World Cup, Olympics and Euro.
I spent 4 good years in secondary school. =)
There are 4 people living in my house
4 people are required to play Mahjong, Dai Di and Left 4 Dead (for campaign)
Only 4 guys are left in my class!
I have four BFF in my sec for class Delick, Nicholas, Alvin Ngor and *Jeffrey*(It's a LIE)
For 4 consecutive years in secondary school, I ended up in the last class. ARGH!
At primary 4, I was forced to move away from Haig Boys Primary to Tanjong Katong Primary because there was a merge.
At primary 4 i moved house from Onan Road to Bedok.

I realised actually not a lot. Oops. Okay from now i will pick anything related to 4. Because it is going to be my lucky number for this year. =)

Read the newspapers today, a Secondary One student was beaten up and bullied by 3 Secondary Three students. Through verbal and physical abuse calling him sissy. These bullies were awarded with public caning by the school. *Applauding*

Life is good.

cute cute!

2009-05-01T03:29:00.003+08:00

Don't you think he is super adorable? 7 months old and he is 20kg! I don care about his weight but he just look so huggable. Look at his fluffy cheeks.

Feeling kind of lucky today! Regardless it was in the morning, afternoon or night everything was so exciting. Its labour day tomorrow. But i have no plans to go out. Perhaps i would just spend another day rotting at home.

2009-04-28T23:50:00.004+08:00

Had another lesson of Colours and Compo today. And we started painting already! Above this was something i completed today. Looks really abstracting right?! After 3 years not having a single art lesson. Doing painting today enables me to de-stress.

Yes i am serious. When you are doing painting, you concentrate so much that you forgot all the awful stuffs. Its amazing! Kind of happy that i took something that i really enjoyed and anticipate every lesson.

One of the thing is to see your friend down with all sorts of unhappiness in herself. You tried cajoling her and hopes she gives you back that happy smile. Because friends are always there for you! =)

underestimating love

2009-04-28T01:19:00.002+08:00

I did one of the most embarrassing thing today. I was late for class. I went in to a classroom thinking it was my own class. And i slammed the door after entering. When i turned around it wasn't my class at all. Carol was asking me "why are you here?". I turned around and said "oops wrong class". How blur can i be? Now the whole of A1 knows how blur i am.

I had dim sum buffet today. It's my first dim sum buffet. I always thought dim sum had very expensive buffet. But the one i ate today was still somewhere affordable.

Love is invaluable. Something that you can never underestimate. But well, i am not in love with anyone. Sadly to say.

Time Management

2009-04-23T00:13:00.004+08:00

One of the hardest thing to do is still time management. Sometimes i just do not know how to draw the line between my poly friends, band friends and secondary school friends. I have to give in here give in there. There need to be a balance. Sometimes i just cant find for one or the other.

I still got big big problem with punctuality as well. I failed to attend 3 lectures already. oh god. School has been so far so good. The appointment of the new class committee took place today and the project grouping was super screwed up.

Some people are just so aggressive in everything. Their actions really made me detest them. Why cant they just let us a little bit more? My group is kind of screwed. But it wont be too bad. And i am really starting to hate you more. ;)

A9J2!

chances don come twice

2009-04-20T00:16:00.003+08:00

I asked you why. One chance for you to tell me what happened. But you did not want to answer. After so many years of friendship and working together. This is how you respond to me. All i want to know was the reason but you chose not to say.

I rather hear the truth from you. I don mind if i know the answer was going to disappoint me. But you just made me see the dark side of you. If you wanna wash your hands off this. Then goodbye. You're are no longer the person i know of you. Go ahead and remain introvert.

Candles that shines you through

2009-04-19T01:48:00.004+08:00

Orientation is over. Officially over. But i still have the class trip with A9J2 on monday to Gardenia, PC workshop on tuesday, human wheelbarrow challenge on friday.

I got to admit i was a bit upset at first when i was informed that i wont be taking FSN class, but it doesnt matter after this whole orientation. It really doesn't matter what class you take. For the 4 days i had with A9J2. What i can say was that they are amazing. I had no trouble with them at all. No matter how much i force them to cheer they still cheer. And you just get so touched when there are some freshies that actually come to tell you "Thanks for being such a great OL and many touching comments. It just really touches my heart. And i know some of my sacrifices for them are totally worthwhile.

What i want to say to them is that, I really will miss each and everyone of them. I am so proud to be the orientation leader of the class. You guys just made my first time being an OL a wonderful experience. I wish everyone all the best and have fun in poly for 3 years! =)

Secondly i miss people from Alturas too. Alturas are the other OLs and Logistics people i have met during the OLTC and we went through thick and thin together. I made so many friends there. Too many to mention. All of us went back to school during weekdays for the past 4 weeks. They are like my family. Sadly is we still have to part after orientation. I wish everyone from Alturas the best.

School starts next week. Time to really wake up and embark on another new chapter in life.
No more mortal as well. =(

Anyway, i went with out with the french horn section to celebrate jane's and bryan's bday. Had a great time. Went to watch 17 Again as well.

Kind of funny in some parts of the show. Especially when Zac said "I'll call your father". Not bad actually go watch it! Just that it has a kind of predictable storyline. Still nice anyway. Gives you a wake up call that everyone still need their family and those people you love.

2009-04-17T01:03:00.003+08:00

I just got my timetable for the next semester. I got into Colours and Composition! How wonderful. I will spend some of time next semester learning how to paint together with learning the facts about food.

Alright tomorrow shall be last day of the orientation camp. The class i am taking is wonderful. A9J2. I thought they were very cooperative and obedient! They just make me feel so proud being their OL. Hopefully their class will continue to stay united.

Okay tomorrow i will spend almost my whole day in school. Regatta for 2009/2010! AS will win this time! Oh ya during the camp, i saw wai kit and sulastrie. Both of them got into Chemical Engineering plus they are in the same class! hahaha. royston and ming hao are in vet tech as well. This world is certainly not small at all. Good night everyone!

A8A2's BBQ

2009-04-13T00:03:00.006+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! this week has been an action packed week for me. I need to run back to school to do orientation stuffs, and most importantly A8A2's BBQ on 10th of april! Thank god it didn't rain in the night. It was raining so heavily at 1pm.

I really appreciate those that came. So happy to see all my classmates again. At least the class's committee efforts was not down to drain. I guessed all of them had fun and filled their stomach as well!

I love my class. =)

Its actually not very easy to plan a BBQ. Its not like just buy food and buy equipments. You have to set a correct date make sure everyone comes, get food at the cheapest price and also some of the constraints you might face.

When i told the whole class to come for the BBQ i thought everyone was able to come. Only last minute a few did not turn up. If you have a valid reason i am fine with that. But if you think its like waste of time turning up. Then you better think of those who actually spent time planning all these during the holidays. Those that didn't turn up doesnt appreciate at all. I am so disappointed. Some of them are actually my closer friends. Why didnt you guys even explain why you cant come?

Well, next semester we shall have a whole new class committee. I have done my best. It ended really pretty bad. But thanks to those of you that actually turn up. =)

Here are the pictures!

GAY! LOL

Wee Weet!

Glutton no.1 : Jing Yuan

HAHA jake's forfeit was to be fed my her wife jia en!

Look like Pontianak right?

Jing yuan's forfeit was to be fed my his husband Yong Siang!

Nasihah's forfeit fed by me! But we are just good friends. She loves adam lambert. =(

Happy Belated Birthday to you Pauline!

A8A2! REJOICE! SCHOOL REOPENS ON 20TH APRIL! SEE YOU GUYS!

Great mind thinks alike

2009-04-09T02:03:00.005+08:00

I wished that you understood the message i was trying to convey. But you always seems like you don understand at all. You know what? I'm still trying my very best here. Sometimes i just think what to say first. But i do not know if we could still speak on common terms?

I don mind talking. But how long do we talk? All the time its just 5 min and *poof*off to sleep. I did tried but it always fails. I think i can no longer interest you like how i did in the past.

Anyway Ping Yi got a silver medal! How wonderful! To us, silver is almost equivalent to gold. But that is only in indoor. Because we are you going to get a REAL GOLD for outdoor 2010. Because that is our forte. I am so proud of my ex secondary school. Its like sometimes i feel that i can never leave them alone.

Okay this friday CLASS BBQ - A8A2
Venue: Pasir Ris Park Area 1, pit 8
Bring you yourself and yourself again on that day!
Its on a good friday anyway!
okay but let me get started on doing the checklist first. =P

Oh my oh my, refresher course starts at 9am tomorrow. Should i even go to sleep now? or should i stay up to watch LOSERpool versus Chelsea? Let my body decide later.
Chelsea please win this! Guus, show us the MIDAS TOUCH!

pleasing someone

2009-04-07T02:50:00.003+08:00

I'm so bad at trying to please someone. Sometimes i just do not know how to start a conversation. The problem must be that i'm still low on self esteem. I just don't see a reason to be proud of myself sometimes. Perhaps i could never have the courage to start talking to my mortal.

Worst thing is somebody let the cat out of the bag. My mortal knows who i am. I guess she was kind of turned off. =(

Ageing

2009-04-04T02:08:00.002+08:00

When i was young i always wished i could quickly grow faster and become an adult.

Not anymore, now i wished ageing would take place a little more longer. You don't know the things you need to face reaching the adult age.

Thank god i'm still considered 17. I don't care if i can watch M18 movies or whatsoever man. Being young is just one good aspect in life.

I came home today at 12pm today. Without any sleep. I quickly bathed and immediately i was on bed till 6pm. It has been a long time since i last went for a band practice. Finally tomorrow i have the chance.

These few days i am just so busy with life with the orientation coming up and class bbq miscellaneous things. And Daryl told me that this coming week i can considered my holiday as burnt. Because i will have to go back to sch everyday.

How wonderful. But it is at least better than staying home playing Online Games everyday. Somehow i managed to erase every unhappiness. In fact i feel happy with life so much.

OLTC

2009-03-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

Finally back from camp.

The camp is damn exhausting. The first night everyone slept at 5am. Subsequently, things get lighter but there were plenty of jobs for us to do. Anyway, through this camp. I made a few new friends all from other courses and a few from my own course as well.

Unfortunately i wont be the orientation leader for my own course. I will be in charge of Baking and Culinary Science. Doesn't matter to me anyway. Well definitely i will be tied down my this Orientation week camp very much. I will be going to sch everyday. I have plenty of things to finish up and prepare for those freshies.

I still have a dragon boating session tomorrow at 7.15. Can't believe i signed up for it.
I am totally mesmerised by this mortal. I will definitely visit your station! Karen help me!

CAMP CAMP

2009-03-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

I'm off to camp from tomorrow till 30th of March. Its an Orientation Leaders Training Camp. But i'm still contactable! Have fun. =)

Someone true

2009-03-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

All this while, There was always something bothering me. Something i can't manipulate. It was all fated. I am someone who is destined to bow to fate. Because i don't have powers to go against it. All i need is a full stop.

ANGRY

2009-03-24T04:16:00.002+08:00

I am feeling very moody now.
I can scold anyone.
I just feel damn terrible now.
I had a really bad flu.
I can't prevent it.
It is irritating.
I feel like venting my anger on someone so much.

Resurrection

2009-03-21T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone. Firstly i would like to share something really interesting. I guess many of you don't know about it too.

Do you know that Root Beer actually gives 54kcal/100g

While Coke gives 44kcal/100g

A can of Root Beer is around 350ml
and 350ml = approximately 350g

So Root Beer gives 189 kcal for a can
And Coke gives 154kcal

So i would say if you like Root Beer, drink at your own risk. Because the more you drink the more likely you get fatter someway. If you don't exercise. I would recommend Green Tea(24kcal/100)g or Water as the best source of liquid.

Okay i am a little more health cautious after being into this course. In almost every way. I watch what i eat. But that doesnt stop from eating fried food or junk food. Is just that i consume lesser. Plus i don't eat vegetables. I might even die earlier. XD

Still, its good that you watch your diet. Having a healthy body is certainly very important.

I am kind of unlucky again. So many misfortune events fell on me. There was once i got caught by the ticket officer from SBS that i tapped my card straight away after i tapped from the front. (okay i know some of you might not get it)

Damn suay la. Then the Auntie was kind of talking loudly to me in the bus saying "you know i can fine you for 20 dollars?" After that she snatched my card and tapped in the front again. She told me not to do it again.

It was my first time doing such a thing. I HAVEN'T SEEN THOSE SBS TICKET OFFICERS FOR LIKE SINCE PRIMARY 5. I thought there was no longer such thing. How gullible.

I don't think i would do it ever again. But i guess i still have something to be happy of sometimes.
I have good friends all around me. Okay soon, i will be off to the OLTC camp. I better sleep soon. Match tomorrow with MI! GOODNIGHT~

FUCK YOU

2009-03-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

FORGET FORGET FORGET FORGET. You have no idea how much i hate you so much. YES I AM SAYING I HATE YOU VERY VERY MUCH. ITS AS GOOD AS USING ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

Why must i be so soft. I really hate myself after that. I felt to stupid to feel that glimpse of hope. I should've known. I feel so much like a jackass. I'm sick and tired of all your same phrases.

Why must i care! WHY! ARGH!

Tough Life

2009-03-14T01:20:00.004+08:00

Life is very tough. But only you can change it. I'm very very tired now. Today's training was Strenuous. My heart beated so fast. That i cant stop. My legs are so wobbly i can barely stand. My arms are so weak that i can barely lift them. I need a long rest.

But hard work doesnt end here. There is still a game against Crescent Girls tomorrow. (WEE WEET) GOODNIGHT!

Tough Life

2009-03-14T01:20:00.001+08:00

New skin

2009-03-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

New skin! new life!

2009-03-04T21:47:00.004+08:00

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake..

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning t! his is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

I wanna thank Stefanie for sending me this. I think this is so true. HAHA. Isn't it? No wonder arguments occurs to me all the time.

MARCHY!

2009-03-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO

It has really been very long! Since i last blogged. Okay with such overwhelming response for me to start blogging again. I need to get my engine start running again.

First of all EXAMS are finally over. Results will be out only at 10march. So let me just stay carefree at the moment. Attending ping yi's concert yesterday. Well its the first time they had a concert even though it was with various schools. I thought they did quite well.

There shall be no more pessimistic me from today. I am starting to forget everything. Perhaps i have too much of other things to be more concern about. All right lets see.

Okay you see guys and girls, I have been very hooked on to FIFA ONLINE 2

Okay i think its the best game ever. Partly everyone should know how crazy i am about soccer. But this game is really addictive. I managed to even get yongsiang hooked on! Since i am on holidays now that really gives me plenty of time to play! Its actually the quests inside this game that has made it very attractive. But i think the requirement for this game is actually quite high.

I love holidays. Everyone love holidays. You get to sleep anytime you want, do anything you want and most importantly all you have is plenty of time to spare.

But life can never go on such a way. Everyone needs to get up on their feet and start working when they need to. Its like responsibility to us. Some people enjoy what they work or study for, some don't. Whatever it is, all you need is to feel interested in what you do. Even though its math, chemistry or even other subjects.

Someone once told me everyone is special in their own ways. I am starting to agree with this. I might not be so special now but who knows in future? I'm starting to feel so motivated now.

I need to forget

2009-02-16T00:43:00.004+08:00

I'm desperately wanting to finish my exams as soon as possible. I've already prepared a list of things i am planning to do during holidays. I need watch HEROES SEASON 3 and i have plenty of things to plan for my future. First of all, let me finish my practical book first. :P

I have a really good pair of listening ears. I swear.
I need music. I need to join band.

Valentine's day

2009-02-14T03:23:00.002+08:00

Let's see, I am at loss of words. I felt like i was actually being set up. Now i have plenty to think about. I really feel oblige to do so. What i have now is just even more unnecessary pressure. Being 18 years old this year. I am starting to feel pressure on me to do well, get things done and i need to get a grip of myself.

I had too many setbacks this year. I'm afraid this coming examination might even be another sad news for me. It is really arduous for me to even think about it.

It's valentine's day. I don't care if you give a shit or don't but since you are reading this post. I just wanna wish anyone who is celebrating or not a Happy Valentine's Day. I had never celebrated anything on this day. But i wished one day i would have the chance. I could still remember what i did last year. Alas, it just really depresses me more. Nevertheless, I remember there was one particular year i think Andrew and Aidil tried to sabotage Chelsea by buying gifts to me saying it was from her. Also buying gifts to Chelsea by saying i was the one that bought it. But too bad the gift was delivered and my CCA teacher In Charge Madam Nava actually saw that. And she changed it. HAHA. That's at least something i could still remember in my Secondary School Life.

Poly. So far none. But anyway i did receive something thanks for the gifts from Jiayi and Carol! I appreciate that REALLY REALLY very much. I woke up really late today and couldn't get anything for my classmates. I hope there weren't too angry. Because i remembered i kind of promised them.

If only it didn't ended, might it be different?

bloody hell

2009-02-08T03:39:00.003+08:00

Yes i'm blaming the year of ox again. My first misfortune just occured a few hours ago. This 2009 is going to be the worst year of my life. I've never been so down in luck before in the start. Chelsea drew, Pompey lost (last minute!) All teams i support are becoming loser teams. Whatever i do it is not sucessful. I don't know why.

It was the best decision to split. How i wished i wouldn't said that? I can't reverse it. I knew you didn't want to continue anymore. Just hope i gave you some good memories to think about next time. It was a 10 month + thing. Now that it is over. My heart just sank right down to the bottom. I need plenty of time to forget everything. I can't even get to sleep now. Everything just became so fast. From now onwards 17 has already etched a part in my heart. A number that i might never forget. No more horlicks for me anymore.

I would say that i shall start a new chapter starting today. I really need to achieve something to keep me motivated. I just hope my luck changes after this moment. My right eye has been twitching like crazy since morning. I thought something good might happen. But one misfortune came already. Now i am starting to feel not so lucky afterall.

RECESSION!

2009-02-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

I have enough of recession, bad economy and everything. At least it is not affecting me for now. People always seems to use this term to relate to money. Anyway, i have been elected into the Orientation Leader programme. I just need to confirm my role now. Hopefully i get to meet a lot a lot of nice people! And of course my ferrero rochelle!! Here i come! Its my chance to get to know her!

Whatever. I was just joking. I'm having a practical test tomorrow. Can't wait to finish it. Seriously. Anyway i dreamt about jiaen and jake today. I don't know why. But i ended up fighting with jake over someone. A bit ridiculous. Well, i think jia en is a very nice person to talk to sometimes! But she just gives herself too much unnecessary pressure all the time. I need to relax now byeeeeeee

Post chinese new year celebration

2009-02-03T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! I'm still in the chinese new year mood! I had two steamboats one last friday and saturday. My tummy is on its way to expansion. I had a lot of entertainment and fun those few days. That i really forgot everything. It's like i'm on drug! Doesn't really care what is happening to me. I love this kind of feeling. Keeps me happy all the time. I'm certified a mahjong addict now. I need to play it everyday. I don't know why i need to play it everyday too. Its like a habit to me now. I love mahjong. Since the day i asked my father to teach me a little. At first it was really complicating. But slowly you get the hang of it. Mahjong keeps you senile dementia free!

Okay i really need to learn to let go. Dumb emotions. I just need to keep myself occupied with something then i will think less and worry less. Maybe it's not even worth me thinking about. Do anything you like. Why do i have that sour feeling when i had rock melon.

It takes time to know someone. But once you interact with someone every single day. Change of feelings occur. My first symptom has occured. Once the second arrives, i can't stop.

Yongsiang with his new hair accessories

Spot my hand (easy la the fourth finger)

ZZZZOMGZZZZ

2009-01-26T20:58:00.005+08:00

Why must i dream of the same old dream again. Why must it come right to the period of time when i was sleeping so soundly. It just really rub salt to my wound. I feel so terrible in the morning. I just cant erase it off my mind what happened in the dream. So vividly that i think about the whole morning, afternoon and ever night. Right every moment. Kind of sad that i had no one to pour all my feelings to. How i wish it would be different later at night. But most probably i would spend my time doing nothing again at night. When i really needed you the most, i can't find you. What an excruciating pain. I wished i had a better fairy. A fairy that i can really depend on. Is it really fate or is it really something else.

Why do i keep failing all the time?

I need you to cheer me on!

2009-01-26T02:00:00.005+08:00

First of all Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!

It's the year of the Ox this year! But it may not be one very successful year for me.

Probably because i am feeling very pessimistic now. I have been really down this few days. Very unlucky in everything i do. I'm a very superstitious person. I guess i really need something to start changing my luck. Lady Luck really hasn't been smiling lately.

Ever felt like you tried very very hard but in the end no matter how hard you try and things still don't go your way? I tried very very hard to sustain my thoughts and efforts but sometimes even a hard man gets tired and worn out. He really feel giving up right at that point of time. So many times that he finds it hard why does he still want to make himself all upset.

But he realise he can't just stop right here. The devil's advocate may be right beside to tell him to give up and everything. And he did everything all in the name of that four letter word. This year is no longer comparable to the previous year. I'm starting to foresee everything go out of my way.

Can you really give me that glimpse of hope and tell me how much you are willing to give me your time again? Easier said than done. Whatever you say, I believe. Stubborn as I am. Should I really follow what my brains tell me to do? Or should i really just follow my heart. I can't decide.

It seems further then i thought

Barack Obama

2009-01-23T00:20:00.002+08:00

Barack Obama made his president oath a few days ago. I predicted he would win as well. Such a Charismatic leader and good speaker. I believe he is really going to bring the Americans new hope in some of the changes he is going to make. What he does the best i think is to instill the confidence in every American. His speech was probably what made him persuade everyone to go support him.

Okay no more politics. I guess i'm really down with plenty of errands to run. Tomorrow i will be busy the whole day, So is Saturday and Sunday! I really need to concentrate. The Basic Microbiology Quiz is just later at 4pm and i don't really feel like studying. I can't concentrate. My mind would wander off to somewhere else. And thinking about problems. I think i am having a very serious mental block now. I can't get to sleep too. I am feeling kind of pathetic now man. If only lady luck were here to smile. Probably i would have all those energy to think again.

Hui Wen, Thank you so much. I know i always forget to thank you. And you want to see your name so much on this blog. AHAHA. Thanks for your PRESENT and SUPPORT okay. I never mean to be so ASS to you sometimes. I hope you understand.

Good night everyone~

Temperamental

2009-01-18T01:59:00.002+08:00

I got to say temper isn't something that can be changed within a day or two. I really can't control it sometimes. Another peculiar thing is when you look back you would be thinking "I actually scolded someone that serious?" Then i will start to imagine what if I'm the person that is receiving all these kind of scoldings.

I get very affected by small little tiny weeny things. Or i think i treated certain dates really seriously. That kind of affected my judgement. I wished i had said something else. But i think its never too late. For now I think everyone needs to cool down.

I was again demanding too much.

what does it take to reach to the top?

2009-01-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

I tried my best. Not only me but everyone else did. It's not easy when you are only like 163cm and the rest are roughly 168-170cm. Their bodies are so much bigger. All of us had so much diffculty even giving them a push.

Unfortunately we lost 2 games and drew 1. Whatever the results la. The game is so physical intense that i think even if you have speed it would be useless. They tackle you from behind till you bleed and they don't even care.

I don't know why. I hate people that tell me to give up and stop playing. I don care even if we are losing or what. I believe since we participated this whole thing we should end it and finish even though we need to be insulted.

I am still very tired from what happened yesterday. Bruises everywhere. I can barely walk, cimb up the stairs. My friends told me i went to get myself injured and not to have fun. I just realised how true she was. haha

What made me really surprised was the girls from my class. They all ganged up and told me they are not going to support us. They are so good at lying that i really thought they were really not going. I swear i was disappointed. But i put up a strong front. Because some of them promised they were going to go. But they shocked me by appearing just when the match was about to begin. Of course i was touched. All the guys were touched.

I must really thank them. Because they kept shouting and cheering escpecially jing yuan. Her voice was like so striking. I hope we didn't really disappoint them. I pity anna because halfway through i lost my slippers and she had to accompany me all the way back to school to find it. I kind of made her went home super late. Thank you too!

I shall see you tomorrow! =)

When is Chelsea FC ever going to win again

2009-01-12T02:19:00.003+08:00

Chelsea lost again. To Man Utd. The team i hated the most. Liverpool being second. I don't understand. Chelsea were ruling the world around 2-3 years back. They looked like they were really going to win everything. But now they looked like they are not going to win anything. I need to admit they suck. The feeling of watching your favourite team losing out to a team you hated the most is really kind of unbearable. Gives me the feeling of wanting to get to the dressing room and shout at those players. I have been a fan of Chelsea FC ever since the arrival of Abramovich. They are in a really bad shape now. Only angels can save them.

This kind of made me felt kind of down today. This was the thing i wanted to tell you. I'm actually having a soccer tournament later on in school around 7pm. I wanted to tell you. But i got no chance. I need your wishings to me too. But i can really understand why you're that busy. I really wont blame you for that. Maybe till its over i will tell you what happened.

I'm going to unleash the power of Stephen Ireland and Lionel Messi right at that moment!